How to painlessly extract a splinter
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(This is going to be a long post so be prepared for some reading if you do read all of this)
THIS POST IS TRIGGERING.
I am currently writing this post to clarify some things and also just say a big thank you. Recently, I have been posting some distressing/depressing things regarding heartbreak, self harm and depression. This caused some people to worry about my well being and whether I was okay I have received many messages and comments either telling me not to self harm, it wasn’t the answer, if I ever needed anyone to talk too or asking whether I was okay. I am proud to tell you guys that I haven’t inflicted any self injury upon myself in any way this includes cuts, bruises, burns or any internal damage such as overdosing. I was considering self harming for a couple of days and when I say I considered it I really do mean that. My mind was completely fixated on self harming and I thought things through including where I would self harm I thought about this very carefully I didn’t want to self harm on any common body parts including arms or legs. My idea was to self harm on more private parts such as my breasts because I knew no one would see my breasts. This sounded like a good idea to me I wanted to keep this to myself to avoid anyone getting hurt because I knew the people around me would blame themselves for what has happened like they have in previous events. But then I realised by doing that I was just creating guilt for myself but I am not going to sit here and tell you that I don’t have self harm urges because I would be lying. You may wonder why I would want to do this to myself. Well? Many things have happened and in the way to deal with those things is self harm I guess you could say I am addicted to self - destruction. During this past week I have been blackmailed by someone who I thought wanted to help me with my depression and confident issues however he just wanted me for my body, I have fallen out with a friend of mine of 3 years I feel like I have pushed her away but she said she needed space so I will give her that I feel selfish and hypocritical for pushing her away, I also had my heartbroken by someone who I got on so well we had a lot in common but he chose to be with another girl in which they hardly have anything in common it broke me. He said all these things too me, telling me that he loved me but he turned in the opposite direction now whenever he mentions the word girlfriend it breaks my heart. Also, including the disastrous relationship that I have with my mum who applies more pressure onto me and won’t let me live my life or make my own life choices. Everything has been very chaotic and I do feel bad for sitting here and typing all of this to you because there are people with much worse problems than I have I feel like I don’t deserve to sit here and rant about all of this.
Regardless of what happens I appreciate the support that people have given me whether you are a follower of mine, anonymous or non - follower. Thank you for supporting me through out this difficult time and I hope that I can support you guys, but as I said earlier I do feel self harm urges and I apologise in advance if anything does happen. You can’t really control your demons you know?
JUST TO LET YOU KNOW I DO NOT CONDONE OR PROMOTE SELF HARM IN ANY SHAPE OR FORM THIS MAY SOUND HYPOCRITICAL BUT I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO EXPERIENCE WHAT I AM GOING THROUGH. PLEASE DO NOT READ THIS BLOG POST AND TAKE ADVICE ON HOW TO SELF HARM OR SELF HARM TIPS.
Hugs and Pikachus.
Small one on Jody. We talked about our love of Hawaii the entire session. Keep the Disney projects coming! #kwadronneedles #prophetsandpoets #ohana #liloandstitch #stitch #intenze #bishoprotary #redemptionaftercare #disney #hawaii #vaticanstudios #londonreese
In a new international ranking, the United Kingdom ranks first, while the U.S. performs poorly across almost all health metrics.
The origin of the phrase “You get what you pay for” is sometimes attributed to the fashion mogul Aldo Gucci, who said, “The bitterness of low quality is remembered long after the sweetness of low price has faded.” But when it comes to healthcare, Americans get neither quality nor affordability.
The United States healthcare system is the most expensive in the world, but when it comes to health outcomes, it performs worse than 11 other similar industrialized nations, according to a new report released today by the Commonwealth Fund.
The nonprofit examined the health systems of Australia, Canada, France, Germany, the Netherlands, New Zealand, Norway, Sweden, Switzerland, and the United Kingdom, and it found that the U.S. was last or near-last in measures of health access, efficiency, and equity.
(From The Atlantic)
Looks like I’m heading to England!!